Tuesday, December 01, 2015

I've Been Talking For Long Time Before I Stopped Talking

   I Haven't been without a voice in about sixty-three years,  if  include "mama" and "dada" and "no!" my conversation!   That make it a very long time of practice.  I simple cannot imagine that  I plum forgot how to make the easiest sound let alone not one you mixed together that they become word meaning something.   I could utter "I" half knowing this was me.  And I over-hear people I have presumably "talk" with described me as sounds that had no meaning,  or that they never heard before.

  In recent past I had three experiences similar to this one.... sort of...   I had Chronic Fatigue Syndrome is three five year,  with that you get post exerting fatigue.   During my worse days I some time I curled up in bed,  needing "to go flat" , I used to say.   Sometime I to rest for days at a time.   I never got so bad, though that I just couldn't say any more.  This year I had.  Two or three time I happen when I was on the phone and I suddenly could not say a word any more.  I figured I had reached that point of exhaustion I had to laid down.   My daughter whom I hadn't seem in 15 years and family are going ready to come.  I could not afford to be down when she got here and yet I had a lot I needed to do yet too.


One thing I know about that jumbled my plan was when I had to lab to have blood tested again.  I have been on edge of my chair anxiously awaiting to that potassium measured to see if it gone up since Friday.   Secretly I'd rather have seem medicine that would not,  could not  warped the speed which match the magic number meaning  'dangerous".   (I would have allergies to just about everything)   Dave took me the lab at 2:00 but when arrived there the place jammed packed and the waiting room was feeling at the brim with perfumes, something I great sensitivities too!  We left to do groceries shopping.

Every so slower now.   I barely am conscious of how discombobulated I am.  It sure to seemed to everything have go faster that is does.  As I get into it though it occurs to me in my typing to get faster,  it is until I have entered backspace fifteen space before I where I typed wrong key,  and that was the fifth time I got the letter wrong.  Or clumsiness overtook,  and my oh my how did I ever get so tired...!    Housework take ton more time and it bugs me lot more too.  

You would think this sort of thing would be common place after thirty years living Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.   No energy was my middle name.   However if was different.   (and beside I have a weeks of in hospital with no way I could ever begin to catch up with it staring in the face)



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